So, where to start off? I'm mostly going to ramble on about such things no one except for maybe a select few will understand properly. So, if you think you probably know what's going on then, Think. About. It. Again. You're most likely not going to know. So enough of this repetition.
A lot of things have been going on recently actually. I've realized I'm not as I use to be anymore. Not that it's a great combustive dramatic change but, it's a lot coming from me. I think it's happened gradually... I'm not sure when it had started but at the same time I'm speculating that I do but I'm just not necessarily facing it. Is it possible to have known denial for something? I'm quite curious.
So going on from this, I think I want to change myself and shape me up a bit. I'm not doing the best I could and should be doing. I've let a lot of things go out of control and just gone along with it for the thrill. It's not really a proper thing to do but temptation is a killer. I really do know what I'm faced with might not be good to do but I can't help it anymore. Which is driving me insane seeing as how I've always been in control before. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Or maybe, secretly my inner self is a control freak?
If you know me you'll probably realize what this is about. Or maybe not... I'm not too sure but I trust your mentality and speculations are correct and will direct you to the keywords that are in my writing. In a way I depend on your viewing of this to see and examine your actions and reactions. Which may not work as well now for my own personal reasons. I'm losing my touch...
[If you have read this long ramble of basically nothing, I commend you. Thank you very much for reading and for those who don't, I understand.]
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