Exude

Release. Release. Pop. Wrong. I think it's wrong to emit negative emotions, thoughts, reactions, etc. but I think it's coming to a point where I HAVE to. It's too much for my self-control. Breathe. Breathe. Stop. Relax. Cry. I think there should be a loophole to this. Though I will not find it. For it's what I live by. Smile. Smile. Crack. Space out. I blank out when I think negative things sadly. I will shut down to prevent those things from escaping. I am in deep incertitude. What should I do? Release all my inhibitions or just continue? Smile. Stop. Think. Blink. Frown. Happiness is indeed not infinite. But, does that also apply to synthetic joy? Think. Exude. Release. Smile. Freeze.


Can you smile at me for ever? Tell me it's real. I'll smile at you through the depths of my mind. I will never feign happiness again. There's no need.