Day 7

Yes yes yes! Everything is going fantastic. I joined a whole mess of things. I'm in almost every club in Hialeah High. o.o
I need money rofl! Things are going good. :3
There's just one problem. HIATUS HIATUS HIATUS!!!
Gr I have no time to do something I love. :(
I have to bring up grades and stuff.
I need a job really bad. ><
I need tutoring I think...
My panic-y-ness went away a bit.
I realized I have new close friends.
I love all the new people I've met.
I love my older friends so much.
I'm so happy I met everyone.
I'm saying "I" a lot.
Does it matter? NO. :D
Enemies do become friends.
It just may not be how you expected.

Inside there's a little fear in me though.
But I know I'll pull through.
My thoughts are disjointed.
If you put them together properly you are God.
Scratch that, I already know the Gods.
They came up to me and told me they would give me this amazing life.
But they said I would pay every now and then.
I still like it even though the pay can be horrid.

I think I'm done.
I'll write properly next time.
Bye.

Day 6

We all get scared...
I think I am.
I don't even know what I feel anymore.

I've been very prone to panic attacks (I guess you could call them that) recently. On Thursday the 17th a roach was on my ceiling fan and almost landed on me while I was laying in bed and I just had a horrible fit I was panicking the whole night. I was practically bawling too. Crying like crazy which is a little dumb but I can't help it. {I'm still/such a child...} I stayed up the whole time that night, I was shaking horribly and it hurt to breathe after a while. I think I have a deeply troubling phobia of insects especially roaches to a point where I will bother my parents at 3 A.M. and wake them up. (Yep. I'm a fail.) I'm still really paranoid. Now today I just can't control myself well I just started hyperventilating randomly throughout the day over small things. I've felt like throwing up and all this being out of my nerves is starting to give me nausea. I feel like I'm on overload.


-"They'll let you live the lie."

Shit... I gotta write some happy stuff, looking back on this it's a little mood depressing.
I dunno. Time will come yeah. Besides that everything is fine and stuff just trying to get involved in more extracurricular things to be a more well-rounded person. Yep, my life is nice and simple for now. I think I needed that.

Day 5

And I thought I'd learned something. Turns out I didn't. Well that sucks. I guess I'm a person that tends to be used a few times until they learn from the stupidities of each and every time and have a couple of different instances to look back at. Such is life... I can't regret it. I can't let myself.

Quite honestly I don't think I could even if I tried.

Besides that... Big giant fat hiatus on making music. My social life and everything got devoured by school. So much work to do. I'm drained. So so drained... I want to sleep forever but I know even then I'll still be tired. Why am I always tired... Even if I sleep properly I still am. Hope it's not a sickness.

Anyway anything else is pretty pointless to talk about nothing interesting really except I might try for either cheerleading or dance team at the end of this year lmfao!

[well take a look at me now. Tell me what you see. Cause I just feel like an empty space... ]

Day 4

I am dieing!!! My goodness high school gives so much homework it's whoa!
I love it though♥
1-English 1 Honors; 2-Piano 1; 3-AP World History; 4-Algebra 2 Honors; 5-Biology Honors; 6-Critical Thinking; 7-P.E.; 8- Dance Tech. 1

I like my classes for the most part but damn dance is tiring as hell! I didn't even pick it either. I want to switch to drama but I hate the process of switching classes so most likely I'll end up staying in the class until I attempt a school transfer. Hopefully the district approves it and I might switch to Hialeah Gardens. Not too sure though. I think that may be a really tough thing to do. Just switching out in the middle of the year for no reason just to not be at the other school...

OH FUCKING WELL.